For me, October has always been of month of drama, intrigue, turbulence and change. It seems that it was the month where I had my first dance, had a first date, fallen in love, out of love, in some kind of twist because of it, or betrayed. October is where things just happen. October was always a time of trying to sort through the confusion to identify my true feelings, and determine where I stood and what I should do next in the midst of it all. More importantly, this is the month when I gave birth to both of my daughters and experienced the joy of becoming a mother again and again. Does anyone else have a particular month that it seems things just happen all at once?
This year, my oldest daughter was married on Halloween. While finalizing plans for the big day including her bridal shower, we were thrown back by the loss of my 92 year old grandmother. I found myself at my grandmother’s bedside with my mother to say goodbye followed by accompanying her and family members in making funeral arrangements. Needless to say, last October I was wrought with conflicting emotions as I confronted and mourned the loss of my grandmother who was also my teacher, best friend, role model, and confidante; she had dementia and is no longer in pain and confusion. Just a little over a week later, we carried on to celebrate the wedding of my daughter and her new husband, and their new life together. The final preparations and getting ready for the wedding, although hectic, were a source of comfort and creative inspiration. October got me again!
I think I am still “recovering” from it all. My daughter and son-in-law’s wedding was unique and beautiful, and I am happy for them. Fairies, vampires, and mythical creatures. It was like “True Blood” met “Once Upon a Time.” Details to follow in my next blog post.